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Tuesday, April 7th, 2009
10:57 pm	update!!!!! Well I'm pretty much settled. Though I have yet to have my internet turned on so my updates will all be from my sidekick. I can't wait for the semester to start although I need to get the bus routes down.. Working on a new painting.. Will have some new pics up on my myspace.. (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 7th, 2007
11:54 am	Start again I guess I will update since I decided to sneak back onto my livejournal a year later. My life has changed drastically for the better. This year I thought was destined to be one of my worst so far but surprisingly is turning into one of my best. I guess I should thank everyone that helped make the beginning of this year hell for me because it really made me throw myself into my work which in turn led to my promotion and helped me get my own place. I moved back to sacramento a week ago into my very own place. I love it! I even saved up enough money o buy everything i needed for the place. I will post pictures very soon. My job is still making me very happy and the people I have in my life who have helped me through all of the problems I was having and helping me through the loss of losing two very important things to me. I got to see Stevie Nicks a couple of weeks ago and she still takes my breath away. I start school again (thank god) in a couple of months. I am going to burning man at the end of august with my family. I got my son back and his new little sister. I just got my car fixed and it is running great. I get to see my wife Kelly next month, and I am still progressively losing weight. I am thankful for everything and everyone in my life. Slowly but surely trying to mend the things that I have done wrong to those I love. Trying to keep the ones that have hurt me and turned their backs on me as far out of my life as possible. Current Mood: accomplished (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
6:16 pm	I'm in love! That is all for now.... I'll be back soon! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 30th, 2005
9:58 am	I got back last night and I seem to have worn myself out. I now have a horrible cold.... O well.... I get to see stevie nicks tonight..... I'll write more later just wanted to pop in and say hello.... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 20th, 2005
10:31 pm	Dude you guys have to take this..... I came across this great page which predicts your future Love life with the help of a set of advanced mathematical calculations based on the concept of human psychology. This award winning website was developed by a group of renowned psychologists. Even if you're still skeptical, just go ahead and try it for yourself, after all, you have nothing to lose! http://www.crush007.com/love.cgi?id=1121916253wnw Current Music: cold play (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 10th, 2005
12:27 pm	Julie you are a wonderful woman who helps me everyday see beauty in the world. You are a positive influence in my life and I love you for all that you do for me everyday. I could never imagine a day a moment where you were not with me Every morning waking up with you still takes me breath away from me. You remain to be the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 9th, 2005
10:41 am	1. What is the geekiest part of your music collection? My Milli Vinilli collection..... Or maybe some of the New kids on the block I downloaded....... 2. What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? Nothing really .... I don't raid the fridge in the middle of the night..... 3. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? Ok...... Braveheart..... The Notebook.......Selena........lol..... I have a few..... 4. If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done? Nothing really...... I've seen what could happen ..... shit goes bad..... or you don't keep up with shit..... not worth it.... plus I don't want to change anything I cant change for myself...... 5. Do you have a completely irrational fear? Yes of bugs...... I'm like the elephant with the mouse...... Hate hate things that are all small and gross and yea....... 6. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments? LoL julie knows all of these haha (as she yells them from the other room) I bounce my leg..... mostly my right but on occasion both......I bite my nails.... I look around as if I'm looking for something to crawl under or into..... 7. Do you like to be on the top or bottom? Ummmmm Both.......Dude I cant enough of my girl either way...... 69 69 69 69 69 8. Do you have too many love interests? Nope not in a long time..... Just been with julie..... Two years on Sept. 17 ..................... 9. Do you know anyone famous? Ummm no I don't think...... Seen a few people though hahaha..... 10. Describe your bed: Not big enough lol.... We are using julies till we move then I'm going to get the community bed ( queen pillow top)..... We have seperate rooms but we sleep in the same bed hehe..... Allows for personal space and growth very happy..... 11. Spit, swallow or gargle? Swallow julie every time....... gargle and spit everything else...... 12. Who would play you in a movie? LOL..... Lets see I have no idea hahaha.... most women in hollywood that are somewhat hispanic looking are all like 4'11 so they might have problems locating a ethnic looking girl whos 5'10 and a half...... dude I wish michelle rodriguez ha .... 13. Do you know how to play poker? Kinda ....I mean I can play strip poker..... you know keep losing till I'm all stripped 14. What do you carry with you at all times? One of my louie vuitton purses yea I know I have more than one.... Got a rich family.... 15. When did you lose your virginity and did you regret it? I know it was in 1994-1995.... Did I regret it.... no it helped cement the fact that I love pussy..... 16. Are you happy with your given name? You know at one time I hated it.... but now I love it lol..... Every girl I have ever dated thought it was sexy soo i guess I can deal with that *eg* 17. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year? Not much at all..... I mean I don't get on really at all...... cause anyone I would be talking to on here I talk to all the time offline anyways.... plus my baby hates the internet..... she prefurs cuddling on the couch making out and welll yea she wins....... but for shits and giggles..... pay to finish my back piece and I would sooo like 3,000 dollars.... 18. If you could only fulfill one of your fantasies, which would it be? To be a singer in a girls band..... a girls rock band..... something like Prey for rock and roll.....lol... 19. What was the last song you were listening to? Beating hearts Baby - Head Automatica great fucking band ,..... great fucking song.......Me and annas song .... 20. Where is the most public place you have ever had sex? The car while we were driving.... we got a couple honks from a truck driver lol....... 21. Have you ever been in love? Yes.... twice.....my first girl and julie 22. Do you talk a lot? Yes 23. What is you favorite sexual position? From the back, on top of her, her on top of me, reverse cowboy, 69, off the bed, anywhere anyhow as long as it means I get some of julies bomb ass pussy I'm good..... 24. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? Yes I do..... I'm just not a coward ..... I'll defend myself..... In this day an age you can't let people get away with shit otherwise they just keep going.. 25. Do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends? Julie hands down.... dude we are always with each other..... and she works all the time so any time I have you know I have to be with my baby.....but I love my friends so..... they are right up there with her...... 26. What is your ideal marriage location? Anywhere with jules 27. How many sex toys do you have and which is your favorite? a few but my faves Jules right hand and tounge.....BOMB 28. Favorite fabric? Anything I can knit lol 29. Something you love and hate? Myself 30. Have you ever been tied up in your bed? Yes and countless other girls beds.... 31. Do you tell your friends about your sex life? Yes we all talk about our sex lives sometimes they get tangled up so we don't even have to talk about it lol *EG* 32. What's the one language you want to learn? Italian and dutch 33. How do you eat an apple? With my mouth 34. What do you order at a bar? Liquid cocaine, washington apple, long island ice tea 35. Have you ever pierced your body parts? Countless times 36. Do you have tattoos? Yes I do..... a lot..... 37. What is your drug of choice? Acid 38. What's one trait you hate in a person? Liars 39. Ever had same-sex sex? Ummmm Every night 40. What was your most frivolous purchase? a $280 versace sunglasses 41. Do you consider yourself materialistic? to be honest No I don't..... at all..... 42. What do you cook the best? Chicken tortillia soup...... Its the bomb..... You would want to give me head hahaha 43. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in? Um yea I do not blend in but I'm glad..... Plus my personality stands out .... 44. What kind of books do you like to read? Something of substance could be anything 45. If you won the lottery, what would you do? Take Julie, Joey, Tyler, Jaime, Sonia, and a few more people on a 3 month long trip around the world...... 46. Burial or cremation? Cremation 47. Do you have a fetish? To many to count...... Not even playing.... I like to watch a lot ..... 48. What's one thing you're a loser at? Not fucking over the Ex's 49. How many drinks before you're tipsy? Half a bottle of jager 50. Do you think you're cute? I know I'm cute ...... hella cute at that too.... Current Mood: loved Current Music: The weakness in me - Joan Armatrading (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 8th, 2005
12:28 pm	Well the 60 dollar running shoes are really working out for me...... I hate buying name brand anything for an arm and a leg...... But yea I had to do this..... Now that I have been getting out and walking so much I need good shoes..... I got big blisters the day I decided to walk to julies work from our house which is like 4 five miles away lol..... Went for a walk last night at around 11.... I really love walking at night..... alll alone in the dark ... aside from the fear of getting raped or robbed it really is so nice to just get out and walk and look around and see how beautiful everything is without anyone ruining it....... I didn't wake up in time today so looks like I'm going for a walk tonight..... Julie said she wanted to come today but she took a sleeping pill last night that pretty much ruined any chance of that..... Two more days then I have my weekend I'm looking at three days or two thank god for split weeks.... as of today it's seven days till we move into our nice ass two story house..... in citrus heights of all places..... its hella nice..... we are right next door to anna......... I'm so happy I really can not wait.... this place is so nice...... the living room has vaulted ceilings and when you walk in the ceilings are like 15 ft high..... (huge christmas tree his year ) lol and like a week after that its Gay pride bitches hahaha ........ There will be a huge group of us...... We got a room hella days ago and hella people we know our in our hotel which should be a blast..... You know aside from the fact that we are right across from civic center.... since non of us will be driving haha.... dude we are going to BEvmo this year before we leave haha... we need to get Jager and jack for the whole weekend..... We are staying from friday till monday..... so the whole group is going to be partying the whole weekend.... I'm going to need to take some time off to recover when i get back....... Well I will be back later i ahve to go get ready for work...... love and miss you all..... hope your all doing great....... Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Mars volta- widow (Comment on this)
Friday, May 27th, 2005
12:55 pm	The cast of death.... Well I'm just sitting here trapped infront of this computer with this heavy ass cast.... I slipped and rolled my ankle and now I have to have this big bulky thing around my calf...... Other than that everything is good... I miss my bro and my jamiekins.... Tomorrow we are going over for robs birthday but they wont be there because they are camping... I'm excited we are getting closer to moving everyday.... I cant wait to be in this place... Its a lot bigger and we will all have our own rooms.... We havent seen to many people lately... Kind miss hecka of you... We are supposed to be going to jills tonight she is having a party at her house... this should be fun lol.... me and my cast.... haha... Getting ready to go back to school... I cant wait... I really hate being out of school... I feel really good about the direction my life is in ... Me and julie have been busting our asses and everything is really coming together more everyday... We keep taking it one day at a time.... We stayied up pretty late lat night doing laundry and cuddling on the couch.... I love you baby.... Nothing much is going on... I don't really have much to write about... Most of you I talk to of i see you often.... Same old same old.... Going to faces with my joey and soometimes jamie tyler and rob and a bunch of other people.... drinking... road trips... pool.... concerts... we have been so busy and so much has been happening I never really get a chance to come on here or even write about it.... But for the record everything has been great .... I'm really happy.... I hope to talk to a lot of you.... If any of you wanna catch me online my aol sn name is oo0ozoeyjaneo0o I mostly come on to download videos and movies now so just get back to me if you want to talk.... I hope all is well with all of you..... (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 21st, 2005
10:40 am	You scored as The Femme Fatale. You're carefree, dark and adventurous...and slightly fatale to the heart. </td> The Femme Fatale 70% The Sprightly Elfin Femme 55% The Student Dyke 50% The Little-Boy Dyke 45% The Stud 45% The Pretty-Boi Dyke 40% The Quasi-Gothic Femme 40% The Surprise! Dyke 35% The Granola Dyke 25% The Hipster Dyke 20% The Vaginal-Reference-Making Dyke 10% The Bohemian Dyke 0% The Magic Earring Ken Dyke 0% What Type of Lesbian Are You? (Inspired by Curve Mag.) created with QuizFarm.com (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
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Thursday, February 17th, 2005
10:58 am	Valentines Day was great. It was the best Valentines Day I have ever had. I love you more than anything and you know that. We have spent so many days together loving each other, learning from each other, and gaining strength to walk through life together. I will stand by you for the rest of our lives. I don’t want you to fear the days ahead. I have no idea what they will bring but know I will be right by your side in stride to hold your hand and to love you unconditionally through every dark moment. This is something I thought would never happen to us. But I know that this is what life is all about the unexpected. I know I have it in me to be strong for you and for myself . I am not a quitter I am a fighter. Though at times in my life I have found myself mimicking the actions of a quitter I know I am not. I am a fighter I have a strong and undeniable spirit that will never allow me to be a quitter or a coward. So hear me now baby when I say this to you. You are my world and I will be right here for you no matter what happens. I will do anything I have to do to get us through this. You will not face one moment of this alone. We are in this together. What happens to you happens to me. That is what our love is all about. We made a promise to ourselves through thick and thin, for better or worse, through sickness and health. I will not dwell on anything life has dealt us because the one thing life has given me is you and your presence in my life means more than this. Forever and always my love.... You are the one who has captured my whole heart and will make me go the distance......... Current Mood: listless (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 10th, 2005
9:47 pm	Well my Birthday was Great . . . I got to sleep in though I had to do it alone. Julie got up very early and ran a bunch of errands for the birthday party she was throwing for me. We spent the rest of the day together. We got some breakfast and then she took me to see Hide and Seek. You all know how I love cheesy horror flicks. Though this was a little better than what I was expecting but not by much. I swear there will never be another good scary movie. After the movie we went back home and I got ready and she took me out to my favorite place ever . . . mikunis . . . Yeah and it was fucking the bomb. After we went back to the house and partied for the rest of the night. I got sick of course ha haha I swear its tradition now I must pray to the porcelain gods at least once for my birthday. Everybody I really love was in attendance and some other people as well. All I have to say is I love Julie with all of my heart. It was the best birthday ever! Amy made a surprise appearance which made me cry. We didn’t think she would be able to make it but a little bit after I got home from dinner we were all in the bedroom and I heard a knock on the bedroom window I almost shit my pant’s LOL and we looked out and it was Amy! That made mine and Julies night. Next month a huge group of us our going on the camping trip for Amys birthday. Joey is coming too, I can’t wait. Now that all my benefits have kicked in I can use my vacation time for the trip. I’m saving the rest for when we go to Australia. JULIE got the new job at Johnny rockets... so if any of you go down to the Arden mall and go into johnny rockets look for the hot dyke.... and yeah that’s right she’s mine hahaha. I've been thinking so much about my life, Julie, my friends, just everything that is going on. I am so happy with the way my life is going. I know without a doubt I have my parents to thanks for a majority of the things I have in my life. I am thankful for all the help I have received from them. I know most people never get one car from their parents let alone three. I am so thankful that they have helped me and Julie so much. I look around everyday and see all the wonderful things that I have been blessed with. I feel so blessed that I talk with my mother almost everyday and have parents that are still together. I am so thankful that my parents have always stood by my side and given me their unconditional love. I have messed up in so many ways in my past and for the first time in my life I am beginning to understand one by one all the things that by parents have taught me over my life. It really is an overwhelming feeling to see my parents reach out to Julie. She doesn’t really know how to take it all in. everything my parents have done for her she is just very shocked by it and I totally understand. She is still in shock that they are paying for her to go to Australia with me and my sister. looks like I might be hanging out with neely tonight I should be cleaning but I don’t want too. hahaha Found some random things from the past it was the last of what I have collected form past relationships. I had discarded most of it but there was this one envelope left with random pictures of me and channel, me and angel, me and dusti, and low and behold 2 of me and rosa. I had no idea where this envelope had gone because I thought that I had gotten rid of it but I couldn’t really remember. It was so weird to see how much I had changed form one pic to the next. though the person that was with me had not . I went from one bad relationship to the next. They were all the same females with different exteriors. For so long I have held on to small remnants of my past for fear I might discard something so important. but for the first time when I held these things up I felt nothing, nothing at all jumped out at me. It was more sad than anything else. knowing that all these people at one time had meant so much to me and these people would be people that I would for sure never talk to again. It really just made me wonder what life was all about in the end. To love and then hate and move on. How you could share so much with some and then completely shut these people for the rest of your life. To be honest looking at these pictures I realized that these four women at one time had their own special place in my heart and I shared more with them then I would share with most people in my life but what we had was only meant to last for that fraction of time. I do not miss any of them nor do I have any interest of ever having any of them in my life again. I just smile softly to myself when I think back on all the things that have all given and shared with me but most of all the things that have forever changed who I am. But I think most on how they all individually led me to the woman I am with now. the love of my life Julie Stonebraker. I will marry this woman one day and have children. I have no doubt in my mind. We look at each other and we not only feel it but we know it. She is it for me. She was the reason I was born. I was born to love this woman and bear her children. I am so unbelievably happy. Thank you my love for your never failing love (Comment on this)
Monday, January 31st, 2005
11:28 am	babbling We finally finished unpacking everything! we moved in 3 months ago and we finally finished all the boxes. It was my birthday wish. Since my Birthday is this Friday I figured I would do something for myself. We finally finished unpacking everything! we moved in 3 months ago and we finally finished all the boxes. It was my birthday wish. Since my Birthday is this Friday I figured I would do something for myself. Me and Julie went to the room last night after we finished dinner and just started folding and putting away the last of our clothes. We both have soo many clothes now. I mean granted I have a bigger selection than Julie but her own collection of body decor has grown in these past few months. What can I say we spoil each other and my parents spoil us. Though I have been good. After my mom gave me 250 dollars to go shopping I have not bought anything else for me ... Just for Julie. Though I agreed to go through and gather up all the clothes I do not wear on a regular basis and put them in our storage containers and then put them in our storage closet. So that is my next mission. I'm all excited my birthday is this Friday. I'm not sure about what is happening yet because Julie is handling all of that. I do know that she made reservations for our dinner that night and that I have to be dressed up. I'm getting old .. blah... I know 23 is that not that old but it feels old to me. I have run into so many of my hetero friends from high school and I am not shitting you when I say out of the like 20 I have seen and the numerous others that I have heard about ... they all have kids! all of them and 85% are married and working on their second kid. I don’t know its just a weird feeling coming together with these people again that I went to school with, party with, drink with, some of them have sex with and now they are mommies and wives. Now don’t get me wrong I like the fact that me and Julie do not have kids yet. our beast does a great job of keeping us on our toes. I just feel like time is going by so fast and there are so many things I still want to do. I know I’m not dying but tomorrow is never promised. I just do not want to miss out on anything life has to offer. I cant wait to go to Australia at the end of this year. My new years resolution has been to get into better shape. I want to be in the best shape I can be when we go to Australia. Of course I will be tan (Joey and Julie have convinced me to go fake and bake with them. We finally decided on our dates. We are leaving on December 26,2005 and coming back on JANUARY 9, 2006. This is going to be the time of my life. Now don’t get me wrong I loved Europe. I loved it. I loved everything I saw and all the things I got to do. Not just because of what it was I was doing and seeing but because I know that so many people in my life wont be able to experience a lot of what I was blessed to. I know how lucky I am. I am extremely grateful that I was born into the family I was born into. I know that my parents don’t have to just send me and my sister all over the world but I am so unbelievably grateful that they do. I'm just so excited that Julie is not only a part of me and my world but she has been welcomed with open arms into my family. Maybe it is just me and maybe I ma being cheesy but traveling the world with the woman I love gives me this feeling that I cant explain. We both know what I big step this is and we are both ready and willing to take it together. it will be our third Christmas and new years together and we will be in a whole new world. I love my girlfriend. I love that she knows me so well. I swear to god she knows me more than I knew she did. She reads me so well its almost embarrassing to me at times that when I do things she knows exactly why. it is a whole new experience with her. there are no boundaries between us. I have traveled and opened up parts of me that I never shared with anyone. she is my soul mate. I love you Julie. (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 22nd, 2005
11:55 am	( pictures ) Current Mood: happy Current Music: the birds (2 Comments |Comment on this)
10:28 am	Your Sex Sign is Aquarius! You're a 22nd century lover - without any rules or hangups. You're a typical "trysexual"... well versed in the bedroom and curious about everything you haven't tried. You give everyone you run into the most exotic sex ever. Aquarius, you are a 22nd century sexual being. Your tastes and attitudes are totally futuristic. You are very adventurous and curious about everything. Aquarians are the "seekers" of the Zodiac. You aren't posessive or materialistic - and you make your own rules. Your sexual personality is exotic and bohemian. You love to talk about sex - anywhere, anytime. You enjoy hearing about other people's sexual exploits, and you completely unshockable. You reached sexual maturity at an early age. You have had many varied sexual relationships, and you have dabbled in just about anything - if only for the experience. Above all, you aspire to become better and better in bed. You love to be taught new sexual tricks. You love to experiment seuxally. You have a preference for the most exotic sex positions - Hindu, Japanese, and especially Tantric. What's Your Sex Sign?? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva Your Relationship Will Last... A Long Time! Your guy is ideal, as close to Mr. Perfect as he could be If you took this quiz, you may be doubting that... Don't! No guy is perfect but yours comes really close You guys will last for many years, as long as you appreciate him! How Long Will Your Relationship Last? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. well I figured I could update since im just bullshitting online. Well I went to the Doctors and he told me I have a mild case of pneumonia and has got me pumped up all these meds. Last night was cool I came home and just laid around and L-dog and Julie cleaned our room. Later Katrina, C and Ray came by we all smoked weed, yes that’s right even I did a Lil bit. It made me feel even more loopy with the codeine I had taken. Well hmm it's been so long since I have wrote anything in here. Well me and Julie are doing great, in two months we will have been together for a year and a half. It feels like so much longer since we have been living together. We are going on a date night tonight. Dinner then I’m taking her to see coach carter, you know my babys ghetto. So we have planned to go get some new work done I just need to finish some touch up work on what I want. I love that Julie can draw she has been designing most of my tattoos. We are still looking for something that we are going to get matching. I figured I cold post some new picks of us and everyone else.... I’ll leave this post short and throw some pics in the next one...... other than me being sick everything is going really good. so yeah nothings really changed.... (Comment on this)
Friday, December 24th, 2004
10:36 am	Can I just say that I adore my girlfriend! Julie is it for me she is the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. This is our second christmas together and our first in our very own place. The house looks so cute even though it is a lil messy right now. Gifts strewn around wrapping paper everywhere. We got presents for everyone and for each other hehehe cant wait to open mine. All i know is got me lots of gifts and a very big big big one i tried to pick it up but it was kinda heavy so hmmmmm....I cant wait ... im bad when it comes to gifts i just want to know.... Today i feel like just driving to julies work picking her up and driving away so we could spend christmas eve together. I love my baby so much. like we both know that we are it for each other. I cant wait and neither can she this time next year we will be in australia!!!!!!!! ... and when we get back she will be 21 hahaha i love it....ok well i have to go day dream about my baby see you all later.... (Comment on this)
Friday, December 17th, 2004
10:40 am	nice..... You're femme. No one's ever called you 'Princess,' but no one's ever confused you with a guy, either. You attract both men and women. You're just as comfortable in heels and cosmetics as you are in jeans and a t-shirt. You like fancy things, but you don't live for them. You'd prefer not having to fix things if there's someone else around who could do it, but you're not above lifting a screw driver if you have to. What is your Dyke Rating? brought to you by Quizilla (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
6:14 pm	Well B is in sac so you know what that means.... yupp.... we are getting her high... drunk.... and getting her some action..... i missed B.... I'm trying to get a group together to go to the old spaghetti factory..... later kids (Comment on this)
1:48 am	ok so im drunk at the house .... we finally got erica out ...... i could not be happier hate the bitch..... now jjust me and julie live here stauch wants to move in we think he might move jan 1. other than that B is coming to sty till who knows when .... we want her to party with us and meet this super hot chick that is very bi bi curious.... later .... im tired i need to take care of julie (Comment on this)